Found in the Arms of Love

The past year or so has been a struggle for me. I have drifted away from God and the Christian lifestyle I used to have into a more self obsessed state of mind. I haven’t prayed properly for a long time and (this is bad) I have felt like Jesus just isn’t there for me anymore (even though I know that it is me that has left him, not the other way around). 

I still go to youth group, and I attend a Christian school but I just haven’t had a relationship with Him for ages. Every time I have tried to give my heart back to Him, I just feel like He is saying ‘well this is probably the 5th time she has left me and decided to come back’. I feel so guilty, like I’m not worthy of His grace.

There are so many things that I want in my life and I have been feeling like the only way I can get those things is if I get them myself. I have pretty much been disregarding Him, which makes me feel so ashamed and horrible.

The thing I am most guilty about is that I have people around me who need prayer and I have been asked multiple times to pray for them, and I do, but not the way I used to (or was taught to)…. it’s always very short and very halfhearted. I know that there are so many people who are suffering right now and need prayer, but I feel like I just can’t pray anymore. Partly because I feel unworthy, why should He listen to me ask for things? Especially when I haven’t listened to Him for so long. And also because I feel like He isn’t listening, which I know is harsh, but I don’t get the same feeling that I used to… It’s just quiet and I feel like I am talking to myself.

So I pretty much realised how far I had drifted from God today, so I said a quick prayer, I think all I said was ‘Please come back into my heart and help me to be the person I used to be’, or something along those lines (I don’t actually remember praying, but I remember thinking about it, so I may have just been thinking about it or said a quick prayer… not sure, but it really doesn’t matter). But anyway, I get these emails from a Christian website everyday, for a while now I have just quickly glanced over them and not really payed attention to what they were saying, but tonight I decided to read the one that was sent to me today. I was reading the scripture of the day and was shocked. God is so amazing! It was a verse from James (1:21) which said

“Therefore, get rid of all moral filth and the evil that is so prevalent and humbly accept the word planted in you, which can save you.”

I was amazed. This isn’t the first time that this has happened either. 

Even though I still feel unworthy of Him and haven’t reestablished my relationship with Him, I am so happy that I have once again seen His love for us, and how He wants us to know His word and to be close to Him.

LOVE VS. SEX: A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn’t afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God’s protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, “Because she wasn’t alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her.” Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you’re never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as Love vs. Sex if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you. I bet 93% of the people that read this wont repost it. I read this and reposted it. Well I bet you read this note because of the title, didn’t you?

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